Lukewarm Social Phase: The Stinking Thinking Experience
By Arnesha Lanette Adams
My recollection of going back to church has really allowed me to see how much relapsing destroyed me internally and externally. It also did some damage to the others who are considered family to suffer as well. By making matters worse, I distance myself from them by not interacting with them or talking to them. Something then told me was awry about my behaviors and mannerisms. Not saying hello to someone even if in a zombified state or moody is was not the norm. This didn’t just happen at home but at church. So going back to Celebrate Recovery even though the old man frowned upon it, it helps me out a lot. Once praise and worship happened is when my up and at em attitude came back, but why so long? A plaguing question to me and others as well. Talking about the testimony also became the keys necessary to open up one of the verses I hold dear and sacred to me. Romans 12:2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect” So really my spirituality is in a good place, but lukewarm in a social phase of people is lukewarm because of the steps I am taking to aim towards being “Christ like” but it is not quite there due to incorrect errors of change in my internal and external appearance with building a relationship with people who love Jesus and God Almighty, not following the spiritual steps of my celebrate recovery classes to help renew and transform my mind, learning from the teachings of the bible to live by, and leaving worldly things go. Until these walks of restoration are fulfilled the spiritual growth cannot be complete without me learning from the positive and negative feedback of my self and what others' see it. That is what the "Do not be conformed to this world" in Romans 12: 2 means I do not need to conform to what society or others' view as perfect will of God, but what God and Jesus view as perfect, acceptable, and good. Not what society nowadays, view it. I close myself off from embracing the comments and try to condemn them, instead of embracing people's unchangeable viewpoint to validate that I am stronger now than I am before in walking in Jesus and God's footsteps. I know I am doing what God has created me to do, or at least I am going in the greatest and best direction even if I slip and fall Jesus relays it to God and God has the right person there to catch me when I fall at the right moment. So it is not easy living by society's way of how we should live a righteous, perfect, and good will of God, but it is the way God deems us to walk it in the way he knows we should walk.